《音樂人生》在香港上映時，影片主角黃家正（KJ）寫下了給觀眾的一封信。
Few wishes by KJ：＜Life is full of surprise.＞
It still amuses me that people are actually going to ’see’ through the scenes to my inner world of thinking. I am not good – in fact very bad – at presenting myself to people, therefore usually people take me to its extreme, either hate me or love me. Many would think I am a talented young boy who doesn’t treasure my gifts, or some would think I am living in my own fantasies being fake to people… Doesn’t matter. Recently one of my friends said we are defined by the people around us, but I think it’s more important how we answer to our souls.
I am an intentionalist. I believe its how we answer to ourselves at the end of the day that matters. consequentially I may have hurt a lot of people back many times. Well, maybe sometimes i meant them. =P perhaps out of frustration or immaturity. yet at least I ‘hope’ i didn’t want to. Mix feelings of strong personality, confusion, lack of direction, immaturity in ideas, (parental) influences may be good excuses? Ha-ha… self-evaluating my teenage life is painful, there were so many undesirable decisions that i have made. I must say I hated how I dealt with people but yet I also treasure these mistakes for bringing myself to who I am. grudges.
I hate myself for being crowned as "talented" or even "genius" which firstly, are not true; and secondly, destroyed my childhood. Implicated by Chinese astrology, I believe everyone has his own path and destiny. Imagine what would happen if my mum didn’t register me and my siblings with that piano teacher, but instead took me to a math class and my father trained me like he did to my piano – 2 hours at lunch and perhaps a little more at night. then entering me to competitions and kept crowning achievements. To the extend that it becomes the only topic for 10 years on the dining table. now you may say I am superficial and don’t understand what competitions have brought to me. but if you do the same competition at February and March for 10 years in your childhood, then you may have the sympathy.
Competitions did give me motivation. it was ‘very cool’ and satisfying to achieve some little thing when you were 8. But it also subtly forced me to play the music for the wrong reason. I must say I am also fortunate to have been in the competitions. They brought me to realize its meaningless destruction to one’s music earlier than other people. Ha-ha at least my father is obsessed with it, still.
So, one may be a billionaire, artist, janitor, lawyer, doctor, beggar, whatever. For me it depends great deal on personality, background and education. somebody might just got bad luck and achieve nothing in his life, but just another classmate in your F1 class may be the most ’successful’ man. Isn’t God unfair? I was confused into tears in front of the camera because of that in that interview in Czech 8 years ago. I remember right before I went to Czech I saw a bunch of people chasing after a thief on the street in Bangkok. The poor thief was half naked, skinny like me (oh well), climbing up one of the oldest buildings trying to escape from justice perhaps because he stole 30 bucks for food. I was literally shocked. one hour earlier I was practicing the piano and I never knew that there is so much tragedy, unfairness and sadness in this world. I simply didn’t understand it.
So after years of inner conflict, I have realized it doesn’t matter who we are, but what we are. Maybe that poor guy is destined to steal those 30 bucks. I am destined to be dumped by the same person 3 times in a row; Mozart was destined to be the greatest prodigy ever. Yet I do believe in fairness out of all these chaos. I am convinced that under the unlimited varieties in this world, God don’t simply judge us by whether we ‘explicitly’ "put our faith in God" nor do the "right" thing. But I believe he looks at how we grow upon our sincerity. and be true to ourselves as human being.
I don’t believe in Heaven. Because I believe we are all living in Heaven already. We are just blindfolded by our immature human nature, too foolish to admit.
Hope those who have watched KJ like it. You guys are lucky as I haven’t watched it myself.
——————
音樂 Music
貝多芬 C大調第一號鋼琴協奏曲,作品編號 15
博胡斯拉夫·馬爾蒂努管絃樂團 黃家正 衛承發
Ludwig van Beethoven Piano Concerto No. 1 in C major op. 15
Bohuslav Martinu Philharmonic Orchestra with Ka Jeng Wong and Wai Shing Fat
布列頓 簡單弦樂交響樂,作品編號 4
尼爾森 弦樂小組曲,作品編號 1
拔萃男書院高級弦樂團
Benjamin Britten Simple Symphony for String Orchestra op. 4
Carl Nielsen Little Suite for Strings op. 1
Diocesan Boys’ School Senior Strings Orchestra
舒曼 降E大調鋼琴五重奏,作品編號 44
汪皓東 吳寶均 周業瑋 葉啟康 黃泰城
Schumann Piano Quintet in E flat major, op. 44
Jacky Wong, Brian Ng, Marco Chow, Ip Kai Hong, Wong Tai Sing
曼德爾頌 E小調小提琴協奏曲,作品編號 64
廖堡鋒
Felix Mendelssohn Violin Concerto in E minor, op. 64
Liu Po Fung Andrew
海頓 C大調大提琴協奏曲
黃家立 黃家正
Joseph Haydn Cello Concerto in C major
Wong Ka Lap, Ka Jeng Wong
貝多芬 第三號A大調大提琴奏鳴曲,作品編號 69
黃家瑤 關曉睛
Ludwig van Beethoven No. 3 Cello Sonata in A major, op. 69
Wong Ka Yiu, Julie Kwan
布拉姆斯 F小調鋼琴五重奏,作品編號 34
張庭瑋 戚耀庭 彭施皿 莫君淳 黃家正
Johannes Brahms Piano Quintet in F minor, op. 34
Tom Cheung, Chik Yiu Ting, Samuel Pang, Marcus Mok, Ka Jeng Wong
蕭邦 E大調練習曲,作品編號 10 第3首
貝多芬 第八號C小調鋼琴奏鳴曲,作品編號 13 悲愴
黃家正
Chopin Etude in E major, op. 10 No. 3
Ludwig van Beethoven Piano Sonata No. 8 in C minor, op. 13 ""Pathetique""
Ka Jeng Wong
安娜貝爾·李
兵車行
拔萃男書院及拔萃女書院高級混聲合唱團
Annabelle Lee
The Chariots Rattle On
Diocesan Boys’ School and Diocesan Girls’ School Senior Mixed Choir
布洛赫 美名大師之尼根
黃家正 張平
Earnest Bloch ""Nigun"" from Baal Shem Suite
Wong Ka Jeng and Cheung Ping"
拉赫瑪尼諾夫 第二號C小調鋼琴協奏曲, 作品編號18
拔萃男書院管弦樂團 黃家正 吳懷世
Sergei Rachmaninoff Piano Concerto No. 2 in C minor, op. 18
Diocesan Boys’ School Orchestra with Ka Jeng Wong and Wilson Ng
Filed under: Uncategorized
最近的回應